*Sixth Firefly* : *Video*

[child_kanji]

[The video comes on to Zashiki sitting in a plain Asian-style room, in a patterned yukata. It's not very obvious where she's located, but wherever it is, it's really quiet and peaceful. Alra-chan's voice is coming from behind the D-Comm.]

I-is it on... ?

It's on. Are you sure you want to do this, Zashiki?

I'm sure...

Alright...

U-uhm... I don't know... if anyone actually remembers me. I was-- ... when people were getting their souls taken... that was me...

[she bows her head, hiding her eyes with her bangs]

I'm sorry... I'm so sorry for everything I did... I know I was under Akumaro's control, but... I-I don't... I don't want to use that as an excuse. The truth is, I willingly told him about my power. If I had never done that, he wouldn't have exploited it... and no one would have gotten hurt because of me...

I scared my friends... Watanuki-kun... Doumeki-kun... they were all worried about me. Nadeko-chan even tried to save me, b-but...

[she stops long enough to rub at her eyes with the back of her hand, but she still doesn't look up. Her shoulders are shaking noticeably.]

I'm glad everyone is okay... Watanuki-kun helped get everyone's souls back to them. Ame-chan took me away after it was all over, that's why I haven't... said anything until now.

She wasn't okay. I still don't think she is, but she keeps trying to tell me different.

I-I'm better now, Alra-chan... I don't think it's right for me to keep quiet this long. Not after what I did.

And you're still not convinced that none of this was your fault?

[Zashi looks up, teary eyed and clearly upset by this comment]

I shouldn't have told anyone about that power! It's dangerous, and I never ever want to use it again! I-- !

[she stops suddenly, starting to cough harshly.]

Zashiki...

[Alra-chan sighs, and with a mutter of 'I think we're done now...' turns the comm off]

Comments

[electric-bot.livejournal.com]

[That worries him.] Hey, you should go get some more rest. You don't sound so good.

[child-kanji.livejournal.com]

[tired, sad smile]

I've been like this ever since it happened...

She's a child spirit. Who knows how much darkness that bastard filled her with just trying to keep control of her mind.

Alra-chan...

What, I'm not allowed to be pissed? I don't care if the bastard is gone! That doesn't forgive what he's done to you!

[electric-bot.livejournal.com]

Well, she should still rest. Wouldn't want to worry others, after all.

He's right. It would only makes things worse if you push yourself too much. Even if you're a child spirit.

[child-kanji.livejournal.com]

We're all worried about her...

I-I haven't been pushing myself...

You are now.

[electric-bot.livejournal.com]

You really should rest. I'm glad you finally spoke up, but it would be best to go back to... well resting. We all understand.

[child-kanji.livejournal.com]

Alright... thank you...